As some of you may or may not know, my condition has worstened. And because of this on Wednesday, May 18, 2011, I will confront my Physician about one of the hardest decisions I will ever mae in my life.
Being a mother was something I wanted ever since I was little. Even then, I KNEW I was meant to be one. To feel a beautiful child grow inside me, to hold it for that very first time, to hear him or her call me "Mami" for the first time. To see him or her be cradled in their father's arms. To see tears in our eyes as we realize the beautiful life we created.
But being a mother also means to know what is best for this child. Who am I to determine my child's future? What if this miracle were to occur, would it be a high risk pregnancy? Would there be consequences to his or her's health? Would there be consequences to mine?
Some may quietly criticize my decision for a hysterectomy, but please consider the health of this unknown being.
Besides, being a mother doesn't mean biological. It means to be there emotionally, spiritually, lovingly.
It is a difficult decision, but for my health and his or hers, it is something I must do.
I am Stephanie Roman. Twenty-Six years old, no children. And I choose to have a hysterectomy.
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